Thursday, September 6, 2007

The Subtle Rewards of Sickness

There is something oddly comforting about being sick, of wandering around in a medication induced fog, shuffling from room to room in baby soft yoga pants and yellow slipper socks, some book or other held open by it's spine and wrapped around my middle like a protective shield. I have allowed myself to succumb to the entreaties of my husband and my friends~go to bed, rest, drink lots of hot tea, watch mindless television. In fact, dare I admit that it's a tiny dream come true? The evil bacteria that have lodged so peremptorily in my throat and sinuses have perhaps given me a small gift. And I have quite willingly abdicated my responsibilities for the past two days. I have not worked, or shopped, or gone to the bank or the pharmacy. I have not walked the dogs, nor cooked or cleaned. I have allowed others to do those things for me, without protest, without even the slightest nudge of guilt poking me in the shoulder and urging me to my feet.

I could perhaps get used to this.

Alas, I feel this coming to an end as the marvelous wonder that is medicine begins at last to work its magic in my bloodstream, gobbling up the vile germy invaders, flushing them out like the vermin they are. My head is beginning to clear slightly, and the room doesn't spin each time I move. I can take a deep breath without the air stopping dead somewhere midway between my lungs and my esophagus, or suffering paroxysms of the seal-like bark that has been masquerading as my cough. By tomorrow, I may be nearly as good as new.
Already, I can feel my husband retreating to his usual safe place in the corner of daily life, the silent observer who patiently waits for all the necessities to be handled, smoothly and competently, and as they always are, by me.

Sigh.

It crosses my mind that perhaps one should not wait for illness to strike to allow themselves an occasional retreat from the dailiness of living. Perhaps a "me day" every so often is not out of order, a day to wander around the house in floppy yoga pants and yellow slipper socks, a day to eat only toast with honey or chocolate cake if those are the things the palate desires, a day to have an open book on every comfy chair in the house, ready to be picked up as you amble through the room, a day of not answering telephones, not paying bills, not reading the mail. A day to just be.

Hmm. I think I'm on to something.

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5 Comments:

Blogger Inland Empire Girl said...

I agree with you 100%. It must be a sign when I wish I could be sick and pampered for a day. Take care of yourself though. I had a bronchopnemonia in June that took me weeks to recooperate from.

9/06/2007  
Blogger jzr said...

Oh yes! I know the drill, having just come through a bout of bronchitis! And yes we need to take "me days" and perhaps then we won't get so sick!!

9/07/2007  
Blogger Tammy said...

I love how you so aptly described your illness down to that seal cough. A writer even when you feel like crap.

Of course you should be taking "me days!" Don't let hubby get to comfy in that corner. I posted a poem with you in mind for Poetry Thursday.

Keep us updated on the mamo. XXOO

9/07/2007  
Blogger GreenishLady said...

It really is a pity you had to be so ill to discover the value of those days. I know how lucky I've been in having the chance to take those days as often as I like for a long time. So will you schedule a "slopping around" day once a month or so from now on?

9/07/2007  
Blogger deirdre said...

I call them jammie days and treat myself to one when the need arises. I hope you feel much better soon.

9/07/2007  

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